My Child, My Son, My World - Letter To My Boy & A Little Update

Dear Freddie,


You're 11 weeks old now and I still haven't written you a letter yet. I had planned to write one whilst I was pregnant but my pregnancy was pretty rubbish and I just never got round to it. But better late than never, right? I wrote a few letters for your sisters when I first started this blog and I enjoyed writing them, so I really need to start writing them again. I hope to write a letter once a month, to you all at different dates each month.

11 weeks have flown by, I honestly can not believe you're nearly 3 months old. How is that possible. You're growing up too quickly but you're doing so amazing. You got weighed a week ago and you now weigh 14lbs which is fantastic the Health Visitor said. You're a chunk just like what your sisters were, especially Elliw.

The first time I held you in my arms was just amazing. This whole new person that I had been carrying and growing for nearly 9 whole months was finally born and in my arms on the 16th of July. You decided to come on your own two days before my induction date, which is what I had hoped for through out my pregnancy and I am so glad I had the experience. When I held you the first time I will never forget telling your Dad "we have a boy!" and we were both cuddling and crying because we were just so happy. After two daughters, we had a son. Our family felt complete from that moment you were born.

Those first weeks were full of smiles, tears and laughter. I felt so greatful and happy in the first week when Dad was home to to help me by taking the girls out most days and when we took your out for your first family walk. As the second week came by I started to get a little sad because I knew Dad was in his last week of paternity leave and would have to go back to work the following week which I dreaded. It was hard adjusting to life with three children and breastfeeding but I think we have done ok - haven't we?

You don't nap much during the day. You will have a quick nap in the pram whilst I take your sisters to school and pick them up at 3pm but the minute we go through the door when we arrive home, you wake up. What is the point in that? Elliw did the same when she was a baby too - funny enough, your Dad did when he was a baby too. You're rubbish napping in between the school runs too. I am lucky if you even get a 1 hour nap during the day haha! You do love to be cuddled and rocked to sleep, which I don't mind to do most of the time. You're not going to be this small for long.

In between your naps you love to be nosy with you big blue eyes. A lot of people comment on your big eyes and it's because they're so beautiful and such a lovely colour. You love to watch the TV for a bit whilst chilling in your chair or having cuddles with me or Dad. You are starting to recognise your big sisters and when you hear their voices your head moves as if you are trying to find them.

You're doing fantastically well with feeding considering you have tongue tie but me and your Dad have been speaking to refer you to get it cut. At first I said no but the past couple of weeks I have noticed you struggle to latch sometimes, not all the time but just sometimes. So I think it may be best to refer you and see if it helps. The last thing I want is for you to struggle during feeding times when you're hungry.

Waking up each morning with you either lying in your snuzpod (which isn't often) or lying next to me is just amazing. I co-slept with your biggest sister, Mia and I promised myself I would never co-sleep with any of my kids again. I kept my promise with Elliw but I've broken it with you. As I'm breastfeeding it just feels easier to feed during the night. It is more half and half though, so I guess it's not too bad.

You've been smiling for a few weeks now and I remember that feeling I had when you smiled for the first time. It was just so amazing, I was so proud of you. You're doing adorable cooing noises now and I know very soon you will be cooing so loudly and so much for everyone to listen! You've had a small giggle but not a proper laugh just yet! But you're trying your best - there is no rush. You're doing just perfectly find right now.

You are just the son I dreamed of.

You are so loved by us all.

Until next month,

Love Mam x